Expressing yourself through art and words.
I’m sure it is true that many of us were taught as children that expressing how we feel is dangerous. For me as a child expressing the huge turmoil of feelings inside me meant more abuse. As a child I thought that being an adult meant to have no feelings other than anger and lust. Every time I cried, I felt intense fear and like I’d failed. Now decades later my feelings are still trapped inside because I’ve lost the innate skill of expressing emotion. For me drawing and writing and then sharing is very healing. That is why I created my website my brain in a jar.
In my website I share my raw and unedited feelings in the hope that visitors can find comfort in seeing that they are not alone in their own crazy mixed up feelings. I am open to the idea of making a section of my site open for others to also share the art they create as they try to express what happened to them. If this is something you feel would be healing for you then please contact me.
I have a story I truly need to share. Excruciating pain through my entire life and is still happening right now. Been misdiagnosed many times and was given over 30 different medications 💊. They never helped. Actually made it worse. I turned to alcohol because I had to stop what I was feeling. I haven’t had a drink in 25 years but the exact same pain is still hitting me hard every single day. I have what I believe is a poem that explains my life time. I know now it doesn’t go away because it’s the same pain I felt as I was in my bed at 3 years old listening to my father coming home drunk and then beating up my mother in front of me . The pain I felt was excruciating and I’m feeling it again right now. It’s Trauma!!!!!! He did it over and over again and again.