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About Tanya Evans

I'm a self employed private tutor in Maths (and English) with learners ranging from 4 to 24 currently. I am a mother of three with a serious gym addiction and a massive need to write (since embarking on a healing journey).

Just slightly braver

Just slightly braver I’ve been on a journey now, for quite some time But it does not belong to me; it’s not just mine. They are so many people, trying to be more self aware Too many questioning, what was so awfully unfair I’ve written a lot, about the things … Continue reading

The Cycle of Abuse

The Cycle of Abuse It is massively confusing when the pain of the abuse you are experiencing, is so immense that the need to hide and protect yourself, clashes with your default yearning to be able to love the person hurting you; this is especially the case when your abuser … Continue reading

Dear Daughter

Dear Daughter When they handed you to me, I knew this day would come The day my resolve, would be completely undone From that very first day, my head has been in a whirl My precious little princess, my little baby girl I look into your eyes and I often … Continue reading

Advice and rhetorical questions

Advice and rhetorical questions: Giving and receiving I have found, through my own experience and from reading many posts on the forum, that making the life changing choice to heal and move towards recovery, is a massively scary decision. It requires a careful and delicate balance of safety, trust and … Continue reading

Just simply a message

            Just simply a message When you feel like it’s an effort to cope When you’re standing at the top of that slippery slope Struggling to comprehend the scale and the scope Clutching at straws while clinging to hope  Don’t be afraid of the clutter … Continue reading

Consensual sex after abuse

Consensual sex after abuse I find it surprising, that sex has never really been an issue or a problem for me; you would think that following a childhood, littered with harrowing sexual abuse, that there may be some issues regarding consensual sex, as an adult. Up until a year ago, … Continue reading

Mindfulness

Mindfulness Mid way into therapy, I was finding that I was disappearing off in to my head, completely consumed with the recovery of memories, and trapped, with increasingly powerful flashbacks and no escape. Overwhelming, is such a clichéd word and over used, but it does sum up the experience (or … Continue reading

Safety, Trust and Control

Safety, Trust and Control I was ready to tap into my trapped emotion in order to release it, when I finally embarked into therapy. I wanted to get to a place where everyday triggers did not effect me in such a big way. I wanted to be in a place … Continue reading

Follow up session: My therapy full stop

Follow up session: My therapy full stop I usually read out my journal entries at the beginning of therapy sessions, which leads to a deeper level of reflective thinking (in my safe place). This in turn, leads to the type of connective conversations that I have found invaluable throughout the … Continue reading