Just simply a message

            Just simply a message When you feel like it’s an effort to cope When you’re standing at the top of that slippery slope Struggling to comprehend the scale and the scope Clutching at straws while clinging to hope  Don’t be afraid of the clutter … Continue reading

What are you doing to look after yourself now?

What are you doing to look after yourself now? We all need to take stock from time to time. It’s easy to get lost on the journey and sometimes we don’t even know that we may be lost. Like any process or procedure, it makes sense to rest, look backwards … Continue reading

“Suicide is Selfish” – the Myth.

“Suicide is Selfish” – the Myth. I am a survivor of suicide. It still feels strange making that statement. I went on a ‘Care of the Trainee’ course with the Royal Air Force, and no, that isn’t why I attempted suicide! During the course one of the topics for discussion … Continue reading

Consensual sex after abuse

Consensual sex after abuse I find it surprising, that sex has never really been an issue or a problem for me; you would think that following a childhood, littered with harrowing sexual abuse, that there may be some issues regarding consensual sex, as an adult. Up until a year ago, … Continue reading

Mindfulness

Mindfulness Mid way into therapy, I was finding that I was disappearing off in to my head, completely consumed with the recovery of memories, and trapped, with increasingly powerful flashbacks and no escape. Overwhelming, is such a clichéd word and over used, but it does sum up the experience (or … Continue reading

Safety, Trust and Control

Safety, Trust and Control I was ready to tap into my trapped emotion in order to release it, when I finally embarked into therapy. I wanted to get to a place where everyday triggers did not effect me in such a big way. I wanted to be in a place … Continue reading

Four Healing Journey Mantras

Four Healing Journey Mantras A mantra, according to the dictionary is (originally in Hinduism and Buddhism) a word or sound repeated to aid concentration in meditation. Mantras can be used to deal with issues by refocusing the brain and reinforcing a positive outlook on the healing process. The healing journey … Continue reading

Follow up session: My therapy full stop

Follow up session: My therapy full stop I usually read out my journal entries at the beginning of therapy sessions, which leads to a deeper level of reflective thinking (in my safe place). This in turn, leads to the type of connective conversations that I have found invaluable throughout the … Continue reading

Life After Therapy

Life after therapy The first part of this piece, contains extracts taken from journal entries, because I think they accurately depict the state of mind I had from day to day, after therapy initially ended. I really wanted to capture how I was feeling at the time in this piece, … Continue reading

The End of Therapy

The End of Therapy Thinking of the end: I have learnt, faced and remembered so much since I started therapy. I have spent hours talking, processing and writing about all of this crap, sharing some of it publicly. I have found a little bit of purpose, and sourced some courage … Continue reading