Just simply a message

            Just simply a message When you feel like it’s an effort to cope When you’re standing at the top of that slippery slope Struggling to comprehend the scale and the scope Clutching at straws while clinging to hope  Don’t be afraid of the clutter … Continue reading

My Story

My Story I am an adult survivor of child abuse. I was also relentlessly bullied because I was different because I was ADHD. Nobody bothered to understand why I acted out after the relentless abuse was allowed to continue. I was punished for the choices I made out of fear … Continue reading

What you Intended

What you intended I clocked you near the ticket office, as you walked in from the cold Your face was calm, but your eye contact controlled I noticed that you did not buy, a ticket or a fare I followed you undetected, as you made your way to the stare … Continue reading

Treading Water

Treading Water I’m going nowhere fast Still re-living the past I’m not where I wanna be But I’ll get there, you’ll see! Having taken many steps I still harbour regrets I’m closer than I used to be I will get there, you’ll see! Starting another new chapter But with gremlins … Continue reading

Someone like me

Someone like me When I was fifteen, sixteen, seventeen Before anyone bothered, to intervene Nobody questioned, my need to be alone This was before C.D’s, and the mobile phone I used to walk for hours, cross the fields I’d roam No real purpose, so long as I, was not home … Continue reading

Pen to Paper

Pen to Paper I wanted to put pen to paper today It’s really not that easy Figuring out what i want and need to say It’s making me feel measly Attempting to put my thoughts in some order It’s causing me to panic Straightening out the levels of disorder So … Continue reading

I guess I’m not that Strong

I guess I’m not that strong Let me paint a picture, of a house beside the sea Where there’s smiles and laughter and happiness, a proper family It was never quite like this though, not even in my dreams It was always me against you all, always different teams. I’ve … Continue reading

Dealing with Life

Dealing with Life by Amber DeAnn I sit, trying to be physically and mentally still. The world’s noise and chaos assaults me like a Samaurai warrior—big, bold, strong, relentless, persecuting. I’m ready. I inhale, hold the breath to retreat into the invisible, exhale to feel my new strength, inhale, hold, … Continue reading