by DJ » Thu Dec 08, 2011 6:27 am
I was born to a disfunctional, abusive home. My mother physically, mentally and emotionally abused us from the word go. I was sexually abused by a trusted family member at about 12. I never told anyone, didn't think I'd be believed, until 15 years later. My daughter was about 5 years old, when my abuser phoned me at home. I was terrified that I'd be forced into some sort of relationship with his family and that he would abuse my daughter. I told my husband - he asked what I had done to encourage the attention . . . Now almost 15 years later, my marriage is coming to an end (his choice, not mine). If I was stronger I would have left that day! It's sad to think that I have valued myself so little that I consider this relationship to be the only security that I have had in my life, and it wouldn't be ending if I had my way.
I was born to a disfunctional, abusive home. My mother physically, mentally and emotionally abused us from the word go. I was sexually abused by a trusted family member at about 12. I never told anyone, didn't think I'd be believed, until 15 years later. My daughter was about 5 years old, when my abuser phoned me at home. I was terrified that I'd be forced into some sort of relationship with his family and that he would abuse my daughter. I told my husband - he asked what I had done to encourage the attention . . . Now almost 15 years later, my marriage is coming to an end (his choice, not mine). If I was stronger I would have left that day! It's sad to think that I have valued myself so little that I consider this relationship to be the only security that I have had in my life, and it wouldn't be ending if I had my way.