Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

I was raped when I was 25 years old. For a long time, I spoke about the rape on an intellectual level, as though it was something that happened to someone else. I was very aware that it had happened to me, but there just was no feeling. I kind of skidded along for a while.

“I started having flashbacks. They kind of came over me like a splash of water. I would be terrified. Suddenly I was reliving the rape. Every instant was startling. I felt like my entire head was moving a bit, shaking, but that wasn’t so at all. I would get very flushed or a very dry mouth and my breathing changed. I was held in suspension. I wasn’t aware of the cushion on the chair that I was sitting in or that my arm was touching a piece of furniture. I was in a bubble, just kind of floating. And it was scary. Having a flashback can wring you out. You’re really shaken.

“The rape happened the week before Christmas, and I feel like a werewolf around the anniversary date. I can’t believe the transformation into anxiety and fear.”

Does this story sound familiar? Can you relate to any part of this scenario? If you can you may be suffering from PTSD.

One Response to Post Traumatic Stress Disorder

  1. Isabelle Collins says:

    yes it does. for me PTSD has been mentionned 30 years after the first abuse. i am not diagnosed but it fits with what i go through in cycles

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