Follow up session: My therapy full stop

Follow up session: My therapy full stop I usually read out my journal entries at the beginning of therapy sessions, which leads to a deeper level of reflective thinking (in my safe place). This in turn, leads to the type of connective conversations that I have found invaluable throughout the … Continue reading

Life After Therapy

Life after therapy The first part of this piece, contains extracts taken from journal entries, because I think they accurately depict the state of mind I had from day to day, after therapy initially ended. I really wanted to capture how I was feeling at the time in this piece, … Continue reading

The End of Therapy

The End of Therapy Thinking of the end: I have learnt, faced and remembered so much since I started therapy. I have spent hours talking, processing and writing about all of this crap, sharing some of it publicly. I have found a little bit of purpose, and sourced some courage … Continue reading

Positive Self Regard

Positive self regard Finding purpose I met Tanya (yes same name) through the school my children go to and at the time, Tanya also had children in the same school. None of our children (7 between us) were in the same classes, but Tanya and I, were both pregnant with … Continue reading

My self-destruct button and I

My self-destruct button and I Origin of self harming behaviour I have always had an “all or nothing” type nature and a bit of a competitive streak. I’m not sure if this originates, from simply having siblings, or whether this is an inherent feature. (Is it because of nature or … Continue reading

The Child Within

The Child Within I became aware of this hurt, scared, lost little child in a therapy session several weeks ago and although more than a little freaked out, I recognised her instantly. She was me; little me; my inner child; and I know this because I whole heartedly and heartbreakingly … Continue reading

There will always be triggers

There will always be triggers It took a long time, meeting the right people and building up the correct support network, for me to feel ready enough, to start my recovery journey. I slowly began to trust and to feel safe, which lead to disclosure and many memories being unlocked. … Continue reading

Parenting – The struggle of raising children after abuse

Parenting – The struggle of raising children after abuse There is no getting away from the shame I feel for making my next statement, but having children completely and utterly messed my head up, even more than it was already. For as long as I can remember, I knew that … Continue reading

Flowing Through Emotion Pain & PTSD

Flowing Through Emotion Pain & PTSD by Amber DeAnn I disagree with common advice given to PTSD survivors to relive the scene. Some can’t do that. When you are in the midst of a traumatic attack, you can’t think through it or give yourself affirmations, or tell your body to … Continue reading

Jockey Daughter

Jockey Daughter My pen name is Tracey Cooper and I wrote the book, Jockey Daughter: I Do Not Have to Be Beaten to Cross the Finish Line. As readers, you may not believe this, but my siblings and I do not feel like “victims” because today we have such wonderful … Continue reading