Manchester Concert - volunteers needed.

[Jamie]

Hi everyone,
I’m E-da-nee, a Manchester International Festival Sounds artist who has experienced child abuse due to cultural traditions back home. I remembered how painful it was going through my childhood trauma- the fear of getting beaten and humiliated by our closed ones.

I didn’t know I could talk about it. I wished I was not alone and knew many of us shared similar experiences. I wish our closed ones knew how hurtful, confusing, and heartbroken their actions could be.

As a musician and artist, I decided to run a project that uses music and animation to gather our voices, to raise awareness of child abuse, and to find strength and heal the unseen, wounded inner child in many of us.

I would like to ask if anybody would like to share their stories, artwork, poems, letters, music in this project called Healing Our Child Within. It can be a story about yourself, the art you drew years ago to express your emotions, or a letter dedicated to someone. Any form is welcome, and appreciated.


They will be gathered anonymously and showcased in a concert in November 2022 in Manchester, UK. You are warmly invited to the concert, and the concert video will be sent to you as an appreciation gift. Proceeds from the concert will go to HAVOCA.

You can post your story here, or email healing-our-child@hotmail.com. Feel free to email me any questions.

This project has won the RNCM Creative Innovators Award and is also funded by Manchester International Festival Sounds.
You can read about the project and testimonials here:
Here is a quick test of idea:


I’ll end with my favourite quote “The wound is the place where the light enters”. May all of us speak and find strength in each other’s stories.

Best wishes,
E-da-nee //

[Stephen]

Wow, what a great idea and project. I hope that some of our very talented and expressive havocans will submit some of their poetry/writing for this.

Stephen

[DIVINE]

Dave ID has submitted

[Embers]

I have some poems

[Embers]

When I email it puts my name on so I’ll drop them in here if that’s okay?

[FloweringVine]

Is there a legal statement of who retains rights to any works submitted, including limitations around their use? I'd potentially be interested in submitting but not if there's no protection in place for myself as author/artist

[Embers]

On repeat

Scream quietly, cry in mute
Speak lies, don’t tell the truth
Stare at the floor
Watch for the door
Wrap yourself tight
Don’t put up a fight
Make myself small
Curl up in a ball
Punch, tear or kick
It’s never that quick
Your pain is his gain
Your fear is insane
Breathing is leaving
His chest’s now heaving
Death will be quick
But first there’s the sick
Makes him mad every time
My gagging my crime
Run if you can walk
Hide and don’t talk
He can’t find you now
You silently vow
Then you hear that creak
your pools of pain leak
Scream quietly cry in mute
Never ever speak truth
Stare at the floor
As it happens once more

[Embers]

Dear therapist


Reaching between my shadow and soul
With smiles and words that prod a hole
Caring sharing your spiritual gift
As I fight to stop my torn mind drift
Silence intensity feels like pain
As I fight to unburden a mind of pain
Broken shards held in my head
Some have a need to leave to be dead
Just one peeks out listens with hope
Daring that you’ll teach it to cope
So each week I face a tirade of pain
Desperately wanting to trust again

[Embers]

Blood and spit


That day in my bed
When I tried to lie still
and make myself numb
so I didn’t have to feel.
Terror again in my head
cry-you’re dead you said
Those tears were so silent
I couldn’t let you see
Dead seemed so final
As I struggled to breathe
With your hand on my mouth
And covering my nose
In this horror filled house
With my ripped off clothes
You broke me that day
My soul was destroyed
then you forced your way
As birds welcomed the day
Finished with an imposing kiss
Whiskey, fags blood and spit
Say anything you little shit
And everyone gets it
I won’t , I’ll be good I sobbed
As I lay with a childhood robbed
I crawled to the bathroom
To clean up with a sigh
And wished so hard that now I could fly
Fly away to a land where there was love
Where his face wouldn’t fume from above
Where I could laugh and cry
And I wouldn’t wish to fade and die

[Embers]

Cigarettes

Filled eyes cast down
to a small fawn mark
An irregular brown
once made in the dark

Red hot glow on skin
On my arm so small
Image of an evil grin
raises fear skin crawls

Heart races body shakes
as burnt flesh pounds
One tear alone escapes
do not make a sound

A reminder of a hidden scar
never to be shown
Nothing is forbidden
to him as I’m owned

Ash burns body parts
smoke stings my eyes
Mind screams pain darts
as a child stifles sighs

Daddy’s should protect
and laugh and play
Not make me disconnect
from this hell each day

An arm, a back and below
leaving your wound trail
Lit cancer stick my foe
threatening another nail

Map of scars remind me
as I hide them well away
Would like to feel free
from him and pain today

Filled eyes don’t look
at the hard raised mark
The one in the nook
that stays in the dark

[Embers]

Torment

Unspeakable pain filled shame
Visions of deep dark disgust
Happens again and it maims
Degradation pounds and thrusts

A ruptured searing torment
Death must surely come soon
My neck pushed into consent
On a grey thundery afternoon

Then I’m up high looking beneath
A horror themed film plays on
Faces, skin, spit, yellow teeth
A childhood so long gone wrong

Can’t speak write or mime words
Of all the acts that took place
My mind soared high as the birds
Trying to escape his rage filled face

Memories push flooding back in now
I’m desperate to get them all out
Panic and flashbacks tease and allow
This freak show and I can’t get out

[Embers]

Safe place for souls

An oasis of waving fragrant petals
Amongst the lushness of green
Intensity of blue above the canopy
Butterflies and dragonflies on nettles

Sunrise mist of dew swirls around soft moss
Buttercups lift glistening heads
To the parent of yellow warm rays above
As soft white pillows float across

My back to the trunks safe wide form
My eyes watch the waters cascade
Rainbows dance in waterfalls
As bees hover dance and swarm

Forests sway in a subtle soft breeze
Waves crash to my islands seashores
A perfect symphony of natures play
Breath slows in a synergy with ease

A glistening Cavern appears to my eye
Casting quartz shimmers and sounds
Natures jewels sit softly and hum
Calling my soul to come home- soar and fly

[Stephen]

Beautiful poetry ((((Embers)))), I hope they can be safely submitted, elsewise I'll submit them on behalf of you. Actually, I will. I'll also ask your questions for you ((((FV)))). If anyone else wishes to submit work or questions through me then drop them on this thread, thankyou.

Stephen

[Embers]

Beautiful poetry ((((Embers)))), I hope they can be safely submitted, elsewise I'll submit them on behalf of you. Actually, I will. I'll also ask your questions for you ((((FV)))). If anyone else wishes to submit work or questions through me then drop them on this thread, thankyou.

Stephen

Thank you ((Stephen))

[FloweringVine]

I'll also ask your questions for you ((((FV)))).

Thank you Stephen, I appreciate that